A couple of months ago I began to write my testimony. It is STILL under construction BUT God put something on my heart and I feel led by the spirit to share. Earlier in the week, I heard a beautiful song by Ellie Holcomb titled, “You love me best” and it reminded me of the realization I had early in my faith. I will place a link at the end of this post. I encourage you to listen. I admit, I am sometimes in awe of God’s perfect timing. This weekend is Father’s Day and I pray this message will resonate on a palpable level with whomever needs to hear it.
God has blessed me with much more than I deserve. At a very tender age, through the loss of my Father, I learned the importance of not taking anyone or anything for granted. Many times, I have jokingly said, “My middle name is free.” or “My middle name is cheese.” However, at the forefront of my middle names is “gratitude” and yes, I am grateful for free cheese! When the feeling of gratitude comes over me, I can feel a warmth within my body, an openness in my heart, overpowering tears or an instant smile. With all of that said, after God, the blessing I am most grateful for is my Mother. I have been the recipient of a Mother’s love and through her example, God’s love has been revealed to me.
Have you seen the movie, “The Good Son”? One of the final scenes of the movie has become a passive aggressive joke in my family.
* Spoiler Alert*
A Mother is forced to make a fatal decision. Her sons struggle to avoid death from falling off of a cliff. She has Henry in her left hand and Marc in her right hand. The Mother can only save one son and she has to choose who to save.
In my juvenile immaturity, I questioned my Mother. “Ma, if Lisa and I were hanging off of a cliff, who would you save?” The mere utterance of that inquiry frightened my Mother! Naturally, she deflected, but I continued to press on. Eventually, she answered in the most perfect way only a Mother could. “Victoria, I would throw myself off the cliff!” I’m ashamed to admit this, but then I asked her, “Ma, if Mishee (my Shih Tzu dog) and I were hanging off of a cliff, who would you save?” She gave me a, “Like really?” look which can probably be found on a meme somewhere on the Internet!
As I write this blog, another revelation has been revealed to me. I just learned that, “The Good Son” was released in September of 1993. 7 short months after my Father’s passing. I now realize the significance. My sister and I had lost our Father. We were desperate to hang onto the one parent we had left. We selfishly wanted to suck my Mother dry of all of the love she had to pour over us. For years, we have secretly been in competition for my Mother’s love, in which she has replied perfectly with, “I love you equally.” Thankfully, with age comes wisdom. In recent years, I have accepted that my Mother is 100% telling the truth. My sister and I are different people with different needs. My Mother DOES love us equally BUT differently.
My Mother could never choose between her two children. But God did!
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”
In the verse, remove the word “world” and replace it with your name.
“For God so loved Victoria, that he gave his only begotten Son…”
In the verse, remove the word “world” and replace it with the names of the men that nailed Jesus to a cross…he died for them too.
For many years, I believed that no one could or would ever love me more than my Mother but in comparison to God’s love, my Mother’s love is a mere drop in the ocean.
Earlier in the week, while I was listening to the song, I was reminded of the earthly Motherly love I have known. Sadly, not everyone has experienced this kind of love. The long and short of this Father’s Day message is that we (you, me, everyone) have a love from our Heavenly Father.
God’s love is: